Is an escape a good idea?
2012-05-04 @ 22:16:14
There are days or sometimes even weeks that I feel everything is wrong. No I don't feel it- actually it is wrong. Nothing is as it should be. Too many problems,impotent rage, strong words and in the end feeling that life is an ordeal. Then something comes to my mind - something like escape. What I mean by that is to run away and never come back. Change everything - place of living, environment, "friends" and so on. And it's hard to admit but then I even thing about leaving my boyfriend. Why? I don't know. I love him and I really want to be with him. Maybe this voices in my head are the voices of coward. He also has lots of problems and maybe a part of me is afraid of being unhappy for life. Maybe a part of me is fed up with being worried and miserable. But when problems calm down for a while I see that escapism isn't definitely an entrance. Firstly, you can lose what is the most precious in your life and secondly you'll be feeling remorse that you quailed. What is more after the storm the sun comes up and maybe for some time storm will be rarity and the sun will be reign over:)