so hard.
2009-07-23 @ 22:27:08
I want to answer to guest from comment from previous note. my love has lived in Galway since 4 - 5 years. I will to find job there... I know, it could be so hard... I heard that in Dublin is more difficult to find a job than in Galway... but I don't know the true. I'll see it in August... in Poland is so hard too. I can't find job, because I don't have any experience. But where can I get it, if nobody want to employ me???? practice, 4 months in court. really big experience... damn!! I've hated Poland since few years, for everything what is here. there is a big tragedy with everything.
I lost 7kg. I can't eat less, it's dangerous for me... 1,5 year ago I was unsafe of anorexia... now I eat 3 times a day + a snack. I drink 2 litres of beverage, for example tea, coffe, milk... I don't eat after 6pm. meat, vegetable, fruit, spices. It's everything. I don't eat sweets, fast-foods and many more bad things for my silhouette. I got used to this menu. but I stopped training last week. I have a lot of matters to do before trip to Bieszczady and flight to Galway. I have no free time to exercise...
don't try to understand me if you don't want to do it.
2009-07-19 @ 03:18:29
sometimes I think he doesn't understand. I have really hard times, but he says, that I should be calm, I must to think positively... ok, but I must to realize that some things may goes wrong... I must to prepare for it, I don't want to dissapoint myself... he has lived in Ireland for five years, for him everything is clear and easy, in his opinion it should be the same for me... how annoyed...
sometimes I miss university, law... I think a lot about my decision... I'm afraid I may regret... I miss people from university... everything what I did, what I do, and what I will do - is crazy!! I'm changing my life 180degrees!! I'm going to leave all I have...
but... I really need it...
my weight is ratty!! I have lost 6 kilograms. and rest?? beach is waiting, I'll be there for 16 days... and I have 6 kilograms for quarry... what a slough :( I work out everyday for 2 hours a day... I'm sad, because it isn't already effective... what else can I do?... I'm afraid nothing... :(
seventeen and twenty-four.
2009-07-18 @ 22:38:16
17 days to go to the mountains. 24 days to leaving Poland for a long time. I'm scared more and more. I'm afraid I won't find a job. I said him that I can be depressed, if I don;t find a job... he is angry for it... he said he don't want my bad humour there, he gets me there for a better time, without tears and hump... he can't believe that I'm not realize I can do everything what I want. He believe in me... like always...
he understands, that I'm scared. uff...
he's calling on Skype, so let's talk ;)
don't quarrel with me...
2009-07-15 @ 18:38:12
there is too much quarrels last days... we are both nervous... me and my darling... he wants to stop smoke, he tries to smoke only few cigarettes a day... he has a short fuse... I have more problems in my house, with my mother... she is worse day by day... she can say and do everything, whan can hurt me, in every matter...
I'm flying to Ireland for a 27 days... for a 20 days I will be in mountains with my love... by then I will be very calm... my love will be protecting me in advance of my mother... then wedding of my love's cousin... and flight to Shannon. everything will be ok... It must be ok!! I still try to think positively.
I'd rather to have a problems with finding job for example, than to stay here an be more and more nervous day bay day :/
now it's time to "Angielski No Problem" - Lesson 6/12, Level B1 :)
Shannon, Galway... Ireland rolls around.
2009-07-08 @ 20:31:05
so... they agreed. they hadn't warranties. I'm flying to Shannon (and then to Galway) on 11th of August, with my love. I will live there, with him... I'm so happy... but on the other side I worry that I would have problems with finding a job... recession...
my love's flatmates warn, that this situation is inevitable... I know... but... what can I lose? only money...
yes, I'm scary. everything will be new... I will be there with my loved one, but truly - alone. away from home.
in any case, I must to think positive. I always wanted it... to work abroad, speak English... and stay away from Poland. I can find a job, I can work there, I will manage with everything. I can do everything!!
I must to believe in myself. I really believe in myself.
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