I didn't metion before about it but I didn't pass one of my exam on June. But I can tell, I can be praud of myself, I passed it! Now, I'm full-fledged student of 3rd semestr of chemistry :) I'm happy becasue I was a bit afraid before exam because most of people says that 3rd termin of exam is very difficult and a few people can pass it, because questions are like not from this Earth. But, it's only 'people talking', there are NO impossible things ... so now I feel almost ( expect for a situation with friend, it's so weird but what can't be cured, must be endured, I hope we'll fix it this situation): ... easyyy like sunday morning :)
No boredom. My friends from Wrocław visted me two days ago. It was nice Sunday. I showed them my lovely town- I live in south-western Poland, nearby Sudetic Mountains and they live in quite different regions of Poland so I think they were delighted. I must admit that I was afraid if they liked my place on the Earth but they weren't bored I think. Hmm, I didn't write better matura exam than last year, I was a bit upset when I see list of accepted on pharmacy because, similiar to last year, I'm far far on this list but Every cloud has a silver lining ... I'm going to go to school where I can get title 'technician pharmacy' but I'll do this for three years and now I'll focus on chemistry.
I like lyrics of this song. "I still belive in other person" sing Anita Lipnicka. Me too, I belive that people are good deep in their hearts but sometimes they don't think about of results of their behaviour. For exemple today I read that 5 years old girl fall down from second floor about 5 o'clock am. Lucily girl is fine, but it was extremly irresponsibility. To crown it all, and what is explaining everything (but it's not vindication) mother of child was drunk. She left flat and she didn't think that her doughter can awake. I think mother didn't think at all. In my opinion welfare (social assistance) should help people like that, woman has problem with alkohol. You know what? Women have often problem with alcohol than men, maybe it's unseen but problem it's real and huge. But who wonders? Stress, problems at home, at work, no backup from husband's side (extacly! I'm not excuse woman from article but where were her husband?)- everything make that woman tap into alkohol. They need help but nobody can help them if they understand themself that they has problem with it..We don't even know how many woman has such a big (but silent bacause nobody see that) problem with alcohol...
Oh, I haven't written for so long. I'm still studying chemistry. But now I have holidays so longed for and... I'm not quite sure if it's good for me. You know, I like being the best in things which I do. I would like to be chemist, who understand every process, who is good in you your job, who knows that chemistry is passion for him. I don't want to scratched the surface. But know I have many things to understand and sometimes I can't handle with it.. and that's why I'm not so sure it's my life way. And I'm aware of that I'm starting my 'adventure' with chemistry, so I need experience but I would like to feel more certain. Oh, I really envy people who are so sure in your lives. It must be great feeling. A few days ago I stumbled across on good quote, it's from "Marzycielka z Ostendy" by Eric-Emmanuel Schmitt. It sounds (it's my translation so it may be a bit wrong) : "It's needed to show feelings, little bird, otherwise you may contract cancer. Women who are silent contracts cancer" (in polish sound better I think: "Trzeba uzewnętrzniać emocje, ptaszynko, w przeciwnym razie nabawisz się raka. Kobiety, które milczą, dostają raka. " I'm convinced it's very wise words, for exemple me- I can't show my feelings, people usually don't know how I feel because it's very hard for me to say about myself. I would like to change it and I can't, for exemple today I feel a bit sad, everything is great, I needed rest, and I'm aware how great family I have, I can depend on them but ... I miss something. I know, it's my lucky but I don't know what's wrong, i have to think about it but for the present I recommend song:
Probably I'm going to go on New Year's Eve's party in 80's style. I prefer 60's music, but I don't disdain 80's, everything is better than music for mob. There will obtain special costums and I hope, different music than techno and so on :) So I listen to awesome song ( look on 1.58, Cyndi Lauper is so bright and I like looking on she in this moment, she is so positive,for me she looks like big,nice sun) which will heighten my mood before party :) LOVE,LOVE,LOVE :D
"Don't be afraid to let them show. Your true colours..
2010-12-25 @ 20:05:32
Like a rainbow :)" I really like this song, it's one of my favourites song (by Eva Cassidy, but I also like when Phil Collins sings it). In my opinion this song has sagacious lyrics. I always feel better when I listen to this song :) Try. "Come, come, take me away from my fear" My fear.. it's bigger and bigger with next days. I'm a bit afraid of new year, of January, of my life in future but I try to not think about it. IMHO (but maybe I'm not sufficient objective) I'm not so stressed out (like I was last years) so maybe everything is going in good way, I hope. Somebody told me that we shouldn't worry about things on which we don't have any influence and we should try change things which we can, and this is true. So now let's get the show on the road :)
'You must first have a lot of patience to learn to have patience' :)
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