2009-07-21 @ 01:31:11
Guess I've lost my will to fight.
I just know very well that it's over. Even if he says that he still loves me... I know he doesn't because of the words he said lately... "I'm sorry but I cannot engage in this relationship. I think I just want to be alone but I love you. I care about you. I can't say if I want to be with you or not. Let's just have a break, that's all". Ridiculous.
Maybe I'm stupid but I don't want any break. I've said to him: "We're together or we're alone and I don't even want to hear about the break. If you can't decide, I'll decide for you. For me - when you say that you don't know... it's the same if you've said that you don't want to be with me anymore. So it's over and if you really care about me, you're going to show me this in some way". And he didn't.
I was supposed to move out with him. Live with him. Now... I've said that I'll move out to England. What did he say? "Do whatever you want to do, it's not my business".
I feel weak.

My friend had similar situation not long time ago. Unfortunately she still thinks about him and idealize him. It's rediculous and I'm telling her for all the time that he isn't worth her.
Sometimes we need a break, just like that. But if he said he couldn't engage in your relationship then you're right, situation is obvious. Maybe by saying he loves you he meant he got just used to you and doesn't see any difference.

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