It happens that I feel as everyone is glaring at me.
2008-02-08 @ 22:14:48
Maybe I’m too coy to fend off their jeers.
Maybe I’m too often falling in bemusement.
Maybe I’ve learnt about life too little.
I would like to say ‘DON’T TRAMPLE ME!’
…but I'm not able to do that.
Today.
I saw theirs crooked smiles as they were looking at me in the mocking way.
I flushed and inclined my head.
There was nothing to say.
I wanted to run away but I couldn’t.
Wretched work! Wretched money!
On my way home I was subdued.
At home I hid a face in my hands.
I cried.
I found a home as a shelter for myself.
Sometimes I don’t have enough strength to fight anymore.
She taunts me although she doesn’t know me at all:(
When someone irreverence you, how can't you do it?
It’s hard to grit your teeth.
I must find a little bit more of strength to endure it.
If she doesn’t change her misbehaviour according to me, I will drop out of job.
I will treat it as motivation for finding another job, a legal one:P
Everything what I'm feeling now is a pang of pain.
I would like to block that day out d:(
Maybe I’m too often falling in bemusement.
Maybe I’ve learnt about life too little.
I would like to say ‘DON’T TRAMPLE ME!’
…but I'm not able to do that.
Today.
I saw theirs crooked smiles as they were looking at me in the mocking way.
I flushed and inclined my head.
There was nothing to say.
I wanted to run away but I couldn’t.
Wretched work! Wretched money!
On my way home I was subdued.
At home I hid a face in my hands.
I cried.
I found a home as a shelter for myself.
Sometimes I don’t have enough strength to fight anymore.
She taunts me although she doesn’t know me at all:(
When someone irreverence you, how can't you do it?
It’s hard to grit your teeth.
I must find a little bit more of strength to endure it.
If she doesn’t change her misbehaviour according to me, I will drop out of job.
I will treat it as motivation for finding another job, a legal one:P
Everything what I'm feeling now is a pang of pain.
I would like to block that day out d:(