this magic .
2008-05-29 @ 17:13:41
I know I have a lot of stuff to do, I know I shouldn't really have gone anywhere but I had this inner urge that made me feel I had to break away for a while. The weather has been so great and after few months of waking up in the morning and then doing all the same things on and on, I felt like my brain was about to go crazy. A lot has changed this year and so I felt like I had to change something in myself as well. THat's why I spent my weekend in Austria which actually was the best thing I could do for myself.
First I went to see Vienna and the last 3 days I spent in Linz, where my best friend is staying actually. That was an amazing weekend, probably even better than any of my weekends of the whole last summer holiday.
First I fell in love in Vienna, which isn't that nice actually, cause it means that I would want to come back there soon.
The most important thing that happened at the weekend however is that I found this strenght I hadn't had for a very long time. I'm now strong enough to belive that I can do it, whatever it is; I don't have this stupid regrets about my past any more cause I suddenly don't care anymore. In fact, I'm tired of looking back on my life and when I got back from my little trip, I finally felt like I'm ready to clear things up.
Anyway - it's a little amazing how I had to find myself in a totally different place to see things in totally different colours. I am ready to look in the eyes of the devil now and feel like a totally different person with the same familiar devil next to me. Only the devil doesn't know the language I speak anymore and lost it's power to affect me back. I am ready for that and I can sleep well now.
First I went to see Vienna and the last 3 days I spent in Linz, where my best friend is staying actually. That was an amazing weekend, probably even better than any of my weekends of the whole last summer holiday.
First I fell in love in Vienna, which isn't that nice actually, cause it means that I would want to come back there soon.
The most important thing that happened at the weekend however is that I found this strenght I hadn't had for a very long time. I'm now strong enough to belive that I can do it, whatever it is; I don't have this stupid regrets about my past any more cause I suddenly don't care anymore. In fact, I'm tired of looking back on my life and when I got back from my little trip, I finally felt like I'm ready to clear things up.
Anyway - it's a little amazing how I had to find myself in a totally different place to see things in totally different colours. I am ready to look in the eyes of the devil now and feel like a totally different person with the same familiar devil next to me. Only the devil doesn't know the language I speak anymore and lost it's power to affect me back. I am ready for that and I can sleep well now.